Bonus: 30 days of self-exploration through D/s
As the month of March comes to an end, I can reflect on the different ways that I have reflected my own submission and the new D/s dynamic we are integrating in our relationship. It has been a rollercoaster at times. I forgot so much of who I was by denying my submissive side. Things I missed and a few that I did not or had tried to forget. My past D/s relationships did not work out for different reasons. However, I think I carried a lot of guilt as to why they failed on my own shoulders. I wasn’t submissive enough, I didn’t do things right; it was almost a form of imposter syndrome.
Over the past 30 days I have used the prompts provided by LovingBDSM to guide my thinking about different aspects of D/s, explore my own desires, strengths, and weaknesses. I have also gained a heightened awareness of how much the online kink community has drastically changed while I stayed away. Sure, there are still the creepy trolls, but they are easily dealt with. But there exists a large group of kink and sex positive individuals that are truly invested in growing a community of support and knowledge with and through each other.
The workbook and prompts are just the beginning, I have an entire list of topics that I want to research further that came up as part of this exploration. Which in truth is the core of a good D/s dynamic, evolution through understanding.
We are still very early on in our D/s dynamic, but there are hints and windows in to what is possible and at this point, I could not be more pleased and excited for what the future my hold. And don’t worry, I’m careful to separate these ideas from any sub frenzy that may be happening.
As the month comes to an end, I cannot think Kayla Lords and John Brownstone enough. Their prompts as part of the workbook are well thought out and insightful. Additionally, they are a great resource for BDSM and D/s specifically. It is easy to see their devotion to growing a kink aware/sex positive community. I’m excited to see where they go next!! Thanks to y’all, I’m me again!
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The topic for this post was provided as part of LovingBDSM’s 30 days of D/s, which can be found here. if you would like to join in, check them out. If not, still check them out, they are great people doing great things for the D/s Community and so much more.