When “normal” gets in the way…

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So you may or may not know at this point that I am in Graduate School.  I am working toward becoming a counselor/therapist that will specialize in kink friendly, sex-positive, mental health services for “alternative” sexuality, gender, lifestyles, etc…  In my personal experience and research, particularly where I am located, finding a therapist/counselor that expresses that they are sex-positive or kink friendly is near, if not completely impossible.

So that is where I am this week, midterm exams looming over my head in two difficult classes.  I am fighting the desire to just put off studying and wing it, versus the requirements that I meet certain requirements.  Add to that my SO (D in training) has a crazy work schedule, and then there are our kids around.  I’ll be so happy when Spring finally arrives.  So needless to say, our kinky antics have to take a back burner more often than either of us would like.  I find myself researching to try to find alternative ways to embrace my submission.  Maybe, I can get him to just order me to study.  Though not sure if that would work.  I tend to compartmentalize our relationship, the children, school, and everything else that the world throws at me.  I still have not figured out how to balance it all.  What can I say I am a work in progress!

What I would really love more than anything is to be taken and ignore everything else for just one day.  But ‘normal’ life pulls in every direction.

So wish me luck on my upcoming exams!

As a side note, beginning March 1st I will be starting a blog series thanks to the support of some great people… so look for it.

Thanks Y’all,

-raxleanne

Dazed and Confused

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Is this really a possibility?  I sit here and wonder if this nagging feeling that I just cannot seem to let go of it stupid, a waste of time, or maybe, just maybe… possible.  When I ask close family and friends that understand (most of) my kinks and sexual stance, some are very supportive.  “Do what you want, people will either love it or hate it,” they say.  Others are a little more constructively critical.  Do I have a unique voice in the sex information/blogging/website stratosphere????? And the honest answer to that question is most likely no.  There are tons of websites and blogs devoted to sex, kink, even mental health and understanding how they all cohabitate.  So I find my self struggling to decide if this is something I really want to do.

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